I have been an RN since 1974, longer than some of my friends have been alive, yet I continue to fail in people judging, I am an eternal optimist and believe in the inherent good of others.
When I worked in FL I had some nurses that actually made voodoo dolls of me because I had a job that they felt should go to someone else, Unbelievable, yes and yet it is true, I didn't have a clue, Did it make a difference I truly do not know if the voodoo worked or I was spooked, Fortunately for me the company had other issues and I never had to face the decisions I would have had to make.
Now it is 2012, and I thought things were going well at my interim assignment..I believed what I was told by someone I had replaced and she took a new role. She has been doing great in a perfect role, in my opinion, and yet in a very public forum she told a Director at our facility that she is doing nothing and I do not know what I am doing.
Well , why was I surprised, hurt and baffled, I believed that she was happy and doing something to make things better. She actually needed some guidelines and time lines but is great in a teaching role. silly me.
She undermined me, the team and herself. Do I understand this subversive behavior, no. I do not.
I have worked with toxic people before and they were hateful, I can not however deal well with this subversive and deceptive behavior. My decision to move on was difficult \
I am trying to understand the logic she used, and understand where she wants to be
The thing is Nurses need trust and this is now an issue,, How do I deal with this??
I honestly thought with age I would learn to judge better, yet I remain an optomist